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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 10:50

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

As i do to all so called friends.?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She was in good health!

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My life is so biszare .

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Comes on , in middle age.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Why can’t my wife just accept the fact that I’m going to cheat?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

(And it was in our own minds.)

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

She found it foreign!.

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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I think the readers, may guess!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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I couldn’t, believe it.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

All the time i was locked up.

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But it wasn’t much.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

So whats the point in blame.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She wouldn,t have been !

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

When she asked me how she looked .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Would this be the day?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I was scared of men, in general

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

We all went to grammer schools

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My family never makes their pension either.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Put me off passion for life!!

She loved him until the end.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And i lived it daily.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I said to her

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Who then, do I blame.?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I will be 64.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I waited trembling.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I was seconnd youngest,

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But, we were locked up after school.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I write beautiful poetry .

This is soul school!.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Im still living with it.

I was very sick at this time too.

We were not on the streets..

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

What did i know ?

So, i spoilt her more .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

It was going to be , some day.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

One cannot live in the past .

I have no regrets .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Ive learnt so much.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I don,t even have a pension.

He knew the spot.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She married twice! .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I was 9 years of age.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I know ,a lot about trauma.